My guides don't want me to post this so maybe she's not going to survive.:(
I picked up a paraplegic girl. Another distemper survivor - no teeth, tremors, hind legs paralysed, cataract, smelly gangrenous breath.
Everything I say about not rescuing is false because you can't leave dogs in that state on the road; if you put them in shelters they're just ignored on cold floors in kennels until they die since the most caring vet is still clueless to treat these cases. Private vets, well, greedy and shamelessly egocentric most of them, will start by madly injecting her with their current wonder drug.
Like Rocky, this old lady might need Lachesis but the guides began this way: I think the first potency drawn is what they need all healing to happen at. So if they draw it at 12x, they always need 12 in minerals at least.
1st on 15/12: Just prana breathing. She was lying in the mud within inches of cars screeching by. She'd try and bite anyone attempting to move her. After a few she let me put her in a basket before she panicked and began snapping again. Two good Samaritans caught an auto for me (I forgot to thank them in the rush!:/ We sped off as i held her all the way home).
[Without the prana this whole op is usually a nightmare. I get bit, then people want to kill the dog for me, I have to protect dog, calm dog, find transport and lecture them getting hated as a weak person, so no one helps and I've exhausted myself in the process. Drama-free means ergs conserved!:]
So though we now know it's diabetes, the guides didn't want insulin, homeopathic or otherwise, which I thought would protect the solar plexus. So maybe it locks trauma in? In a sad way, maybe all diabetics are doomed by being on it.
Their first pick was Nat mur 12: shock, grief, fright can be treated with it in homeopathy. So I healed with it at the root, base of the spine, and it set off a deep trembling in her in 5 mins. She kind of 'woke up' (like surfacing from under water) for the first time and drank a load of water which she'd been refusing until then.
Then 2nd: Conium 10m, Chenapodium 30, Grindelia 3 - so all plant remedies to clear the system probably. I can't figure out why the order. Grindelia is in a diabetic list by Ojas. Conium is for ascending paralysis, Chenapodium for worms and otitis. Chenapodium or Conium cleared the spasms around the head which made her cry out at 3 am.
Can't guess if the order is important or if any plant remedy would do to activate and purge cells of trauma.
All of today (16/Dec) she's peeing where she lies and drinking water when I wake her up. Just a few hours ago in the evening she drank milk and ate two pieces of meat for the first time. The general trembling continues but she's not waking up in a screaming panic like last night. She's sleeping more heavily, snoring too but not able to turn her body. I had to do it for her.
Her legs are still stiffly sticking out from under her. I have to change her bedding soon because the ammoniacal smell is overpowering, but maybe tomorrow. If she's painfully swollen I'd just be stressing her out again.
Every rescue is a disaster for me. There's no returning them to the street, there's limited space and they disrupt life for the existing animals. Burial is a problem too if they die.
I rescue old and dying animals because I'd like to give them a warm, quiet, safe place to let go in and a full stomach with no thirst in the end. But even those live upto 2 years with me. I never rescue if I can help it. I hate having to. I understand why shelters kill to make room for more and to keep functioning - these blind, exhausted animals are so easily explained away as they serve no apparent purpose alive.:(
But, to me, they're all anchors. They ground people into reality and fix them in place when they love them. People with animals live longer.
But today (17 Dec) I had to leave an old male, who was struggling to walk, behind. I fed him and he ate voraciously. He had a collar so probably abandoned. In this cold.:(
He's an alpha and he'll rile up my dogs more than a female. He could still walk which is more than my old lady could do. And see a little, no full cataract. He could see from one eye at least so I wished him love and luck and left him regretfully.
Shelters are packed and noisy. And he'll be euthanized. He'll do better in the quiet neighborhood he's in. Maybe the next person will give him a home or at least feed him regularly on the street.
Feel awful. As bad as when I give the street sleepers a blanket and sweater and run away. All winter I feel guilty that I can't do more for these poor creatures. But there's only so much one person can do for the chronic misery created by an indifferent, affluent society.
Saturday, December 17, 2016
My guides don't want me to post this so maybe she's not going to survive.:(
I've made a mistake with an alpha that I didn't realise could happen to those without functioning pineal glands.
There is an aggressive dog who bullies every other dog (but it's girlfriend) when I'm feeding them. Very disruptive.
About a month ago I got annoyed at how little the others got and was new to prana breathing so wanted to try to give him the energy direct so that he wouldn't steal from others. I sent some very irritable intentions with the breath, I think.
The very next day he was hanging back. He'd eat only if I cut off small pieces or specifically directed him to eat. Pretending he was helpless or sick maybe.
This also happened to the black male circle puppy too on a similar breath to stop him scaring and stealing from his sister. He seems to have found a balance though of better behaviour, probably because he's young, growing and adapted it to his understanding of life with humans. And his pineal is still evolving.
But the older alpha is still confused, after a whole month!
My takeaway from this is
* only to use the prana breath when calm and joyful;
* only to use it on the young & non-alphas who need the energy boost;
* not to use it in annoyance when animals are making a nuisance of themselves from an excess of stuck energy;
* not to use it to take away anything energetic but to give.
An alpha naturally has an excess of energy which is why they head groups. I had not understood that in terms of food fights. Sceps are probably in the same power-accumulating, down to earth, confused-about-kindness category
I don't know how to undo what I've done and make him confident again but I can leave future alphas and sceps alone.
Thursday, December 15, 2016
I'm not particularly fanciful or egocentric (not much:) but I've begun to notice a kind of hush when I pick good remedies. It's like my animals and Nature itself holds its collective breath and bounds in joy when I find a good one.
My dogs settle for a good snooze, Tipu and Hyder (who live in a bag behind my bed now) scramble for space, old Blackie settles on the box in the shelf and even the rats stop squabbling. The kittens even 100-200 ft away in a different house calm down in about 10 mins. I feel like Jonathon Livingstone Seagull taking off.:)
It's amusing and terrifying to know how deep and needy the world is for a powerful healer if even I can do this much with so little.
The converse is that they hate me chatting on twitter avoiding healing responsibility and escaping into that lala land.
Wednesday, December 14, 2016
The more I know about diabetes the less confident I get of the cure. There may actually be no cure since it's like a chimera, so deceptive.
About 6-8 months ago it dawned on me that the Victorian distemper of humans was the same as canine distemper which is the same as kitten fip which is cholera (-('choleric' was also used in Victorian romance:).
By concentrating on the parasite, allopathy has foolishly or deliberately turned it into a thousand different diseases.
Still just figuring that out didn't make life any easier. Childhood disease is rapid onset, swift death. Adult disease is splintered into a billion symptoms as the life energy adapts and warps to keep flowing.
Uran was my first breakthrough - 8, now 10 kittens saved! What's more, the stream of fip kittens being born has temporarily halted - something's changed in the pregnant mothers.
But there are still residual symptoms in the survivors - lung (tipu), heart (icy), throat (voice lost, gcat), abdomen (rani), nerve (raja), skin (kenchu) that flare up with solar events.
Yes, fundamentally it is solar driven. The CME, flare, solar wind (and the cosmic radiation when none of these are there), make cure look like an impossibility. Space weather is unpredictable and so is diabetes.
But I persist because, well, I'm convinced cure is linked to prana and breathing and so it should be within our power to heal. A combination of homeopathy, prana and Reiki should build a protective aura thick enough to withstand external provocation. As long as the guides are sharing, I can hope.
This month has been the best yet for all my animals. It can only be because of these energies because space weather hasn't changed.
Two interesting sites with protocols on treating it.
1. Diabetic homeopathy remedies: http://healthy-ojas.com/diabetes/diabetes-homeopathic.html
2. Diabetes and it's permanent cure: https://bashirmahmudellias.wordpress.com/2011/01/09/diabetes-and-its-permanent-cure-with-homeopathic-medicines/
To get back to the subject of diabetes which my guides feel I didn't do enough justice to, or finish, which I keep getting sick and forgetful of: Alzheimer's and senility (probably even aging) is diabetes in its later manifestations.
The thing is that it's a suckling problem and even further back, it's a problem from the womb. Ill-nourished placentas probably. A pregnant mother's shock, PTSD and nutrient deficiency. A mother's pica. Her cravings and her temporary pregnancy diabetes gets lodged in the child and the sins of the father are indeed passed on to his child.
If you don't conceive in love, in joy and security, with enough resources to multiply, the body seems to use the fetus for emotional waste disposal, just as it does heavy metals (vera).
The child is then born to die or suffer.
In cats I often wonder about it. There are steady couples mated for life - like Patriarch and Matriarch, Banditti and Manmatha, Magalu & Oldie. Then there are the single independent females not really in love with any particularly - the terrace pair, shilla, Chiri, Blackie- that rogue males like Rafiq and Boyfriend seem to rape. I wonder if the rash of dying kittens might have been traumatic conception and if that is why they develop infant diabetes and are even abandoned by the mothers when they bite instead of suckle. (The mothers themselves weren't very healthy to begin with, and as their own survival is precarious, and they're too young, they're not ready to mate or procreate).
It's too complex to understand easily why the life force goes haywire. But emotions like fear and hate, appear to be central to the suffering and needs healing. There's an irritability of fiber and the nerves are shot leaving their solar plexus' weak and vulnerable.
When women become precious, the diabetic disease may vanish. When men grow gentle and kind to their women they'll have strong healthy babies. When older women mate and give birth, longevity and disease-free kits might be born. When they mate for love, etc. ... That seems to be the message of the guides. At least, in the healing of cats and dogs.
Love might be in the radioactive spectrum.:)
I remember the shocking clarity of the world when I was deeply in love. I have never been more alive than in that hormone soup. I understood both a painful, poignant beauty and it's transient nature in that brief moment. My aura was filled with it. (That it didn't last is beside the point.;)
A child conceived in that and carried to term would have been invincible. Glad it didn't happen because it was an illusion and the child would have been a very real person ...;p but just saying that there's a better way to conceive than most conceptions today in the world. We must be glowing in a radioactive love to have children that glow the same.
If the kitten is glowing, s/he suckles peacefully, laving and loving, sharing energy. They both glow and grow. The mother remembers all her instincts to nurture, not just to protect and feed anxiously.
Because nurture is generations of memory, it takes more energy to remember, rising up as gut instinct. It's encoded for security, for secure release in a timebound, need based fashion. All memory problems stem from the solar plexus. That wonderful ancient animal brain that is inextricable linked to the delicate heart chakra.
Diabetes during pregnancy means forgetting. Diabetes in children means emotional stunting and forgetting gut instincts. Diabetes is senility.