Thursday, May 19, 2016

Lament for a kitten

I doubt if anyone has indulged in more moping around on the question of life and death and homeopathy than I have. I used to drive everyone mad around me asking,"why did it have to die?" "what did I do wrong" and "how could I have done it differently"?

I guess this has been the agony of healing for centuries but no one would have sulked about it as much as I, I'm sure.

Thanks to blogging I can now do my agony and justifications and confessions and flashbacks and reruns and arguments with myself here and leave the rest of my society in peace.

The little malnourished kitten I had found on 10/5 being eaten alive by ants died this morning 17/5. Just after the peak of the geomagnetic storm, just before the rains. The immune triggers are what kill - is like an autoimmune disorder - the rising kp sets up inflammations around the body, the falling kp awakens the immune response, fatally for the weak.

It died more peacefully and unexpectedly than any before but still, it's dead. Not alive.

Always the people I used to talk to, or rather 'at', would say, "homeopathy can cure anything, you must have given too many remedies" or "too few" depending on their mood. Nearly all used to say,"take it to a vet!" until they saw all but one kitten died on the table within 2 days when a fair percentage of mine have survived. It's not even am option in my mind after 20 yrs of working with animals. There's nothing in vet sc that can save a distemper case (which is usually 'multimorbid' and systemic) and a lot that make it worse.

First, I don't think homeopathy can cure just "anything" - not if there isn't enough time. Time seems to be a major component in liver-solar plexus healing.

Secondly, I don't think too many or to few remedies is ever a problem. The wrong remedy is ineffective, but the right one given with many others will still work. Rather, needing too many remedies is an indication of how the healing is not going anywhere. If the animal draws too many remedies then it probably will not heal in the time it has - and that it is leaking energy rapidly. If it draws only a few, and less over time, it will heal, there is flow. And too few means it can't be healed again in the other direction, that energy is blocked severely. This is so commonly observed that Hering has made this into his laws and direction of cure (Kent?).

Some of it is my fault, I agree. I didn't repeat the remedies enough perhaps. I did the prana breathing the guides suggested but not enough - my solar plexus was unprepared for that kind of exertion. I also don't know if I did it right, and uncertainty makes me give up easily. I also never reached the sipping edge of prana more than a few seconds at a time in four days. Clearly there was skill involved that I didn't yet have.

The guides told me on the 11th that the kitten would die anyway, but I was hoping. what choice did I have? I could smell the internal gangrene even after the prana breath drove it out of the lungs by the 12th. Because the kitten was learning so many things so fast I thought I had more time.

I didn't pay attention when the urine was colorless that the kidneys might have been affected. This morning 17/5 it developed the pale golden yellow of the kidneys healing but too late.

Every improvement came too late to save the kitten. It taught itself to go from liquid food to solid, to pee on its own, to shit on its own, to play, to climb, retract it's claws, to clean itself ...

Everything but to drink water which might have saved it's life (which seems to be an indicator of kidney function - not thirst but drinking water) drinking milk is thirst too but not the cleansing kind that comes with drinking water in a kitten.

I also didn't pay attention when the kp rose to 5 then dropped to 2 and rose again to 5. I did the Calc fluor both times but not anything for the roller coaster ride down. Not nat mur or Mag phos or any other cell balance. I don't understand enough about healing for the sun's radiation and why it dries out the cells even indoors. when the kitten is drinking milk, why isn't it enough to hydrate, why must it be water? the mucus was very salty (yes I tasted it, I'm gross like that), more salty than a healthy kitten's.

Distemper is not called 'hard pad' for nothing. I vaguely felt it was hardening, panicked, closed my mind and did nothing about it mostly because I didn't know what to do. I should have tried spinal remedies and brain remedies that would have linked up the energy and softened. At least I could have thought it through and tried something instead of blanking it out in terror.

Then the pointy face. This was another thing I blanked out until 16/5. It's so typical of distemper that I even know the remedy for it at the tip of my tongue. The temples sink in and the nose looks longer. The tip grows hard, sometimes cracks. I even saw the temple sinking symptom and thought that it was where Roguen drew energy the most but I couldn't find the remedy either in my memories or my notes. Fear of the disease is really a form of amnesia in healers.:(

The wry neck is a symptom. the  thin neck too but Gingercat grew up with it, and it grew stronger with Mag Chlor and iod in 3,30.

I should have all this on a checklist. I ignored it because I wanted it not to be distemper so badly; because I didn't know if I could cure that in one so young and so weak.

The last give-away that I should have paid attention to and the most irrational is that the kitten didn't choose a name. Most when asked and they intend to live will pick one or someone will suggest it. That's how magalu, banditti, manmatha, grey, roguen, ginger cat, simba, sammy have all picked their names and survived distemper. This kitten ignored the question from day 1.:(

the guides were right as usual. he did die. I've got to find the right way to do prana breathing for the next kitten because it worked a bit and made it a fairly painless death. RIP, kit.
Oldiefattypuppy is missing since 5 pm yesterday during the rain,18/5. Looked for him all morning. The streets are full of prestorm runner dogs - saw 5 with inflammations, 3 collared. No sign of my poor oldie. I put the word out, but I don't hold out much hope. Rains in Chennai, Sri Lanka headed this way.

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